I sit and write about my past hoping to sell my story to the world and as I start to close my eyes to keep my head from hurting I see her body start to take form and she looks so warm I think about how we used to stand so close I though that we'd never be left without somebody but that was so long ago that I seem to have forgot that it's not really so anymore because things have changed and now I miss her more and I don't know how to stop the tears from falling down as I raise my voice and I start to yell why id she have to die before me and the only words that can keep me from losing control are the ones that say maybe it's because she would have been more lonely had it been me that passed before her eyes that sad and lonely day way back in the end of our happy dream of marrying and raising a family, but why does it have to be me I still cry, why was I denied, why was I denied, I'm trying hard not to cry I just can not hide all the hurt I feel inside as I continue to write down the words of our love affair