PART 2}  Because of the defining sound of the Universe Cracking in two. Its not fair I am not suppose to be burring my sons, they are supposed to do that like I did for my mom. My 1st son Nathan lived 3 months and 12 days, and my oldest Sean lived 23 years, I am thankful for the time I had with both of them and I always keep thinking what I should have done to make your lives better or what could I have done to keep from ever losing you two. I have all this empty space in my life filled with nothing but time. Times full of would of's and could of's and should of's and if olny's. Its so lonely and empty in my world full of this space, of time and loneliness trying to find a way out of this but I climb and fall every time I get a little higher just to fall down even further no one knows how bad it is except me and GOD. I just hope he rears me soon. please pray for my family and I.