I am so lost in this big space full of time and just me and those that have taken advantage of my situation so that they profit off of my misery. Its a pain so big I can't measure it on any scale that exists in this world. every time I fall down I am more lost even when I think it can't get worse I am here to tell you no matter the situation it can always get worse. So please never say that things couldn't be worse because the universe will kick your ass in a ways you never dreamed even existed. I always think its going to get better at any second .....I'm still praying and hoping, it has to come because