I miss you Sean my amazing son whom was taken way to soon only 23 years old such a big heart and sweet soul always loved. A wonderful son to me.I'm sorry you got cheated out of 2/3's of your life, its not fair Your life was just starting to take off and a senseless tragedy took you from this world.Since Sept 7th 2012 I kind of checked out of life I have been on auto pilot on survival mode Just surviving life and not living it. I wouldn't know what living it instead of surviving it feels like its been pretty bad most of my life.Then your brother was murdered, all my marriages ,college, military all epic failures then my mom died on your birthday I miss her to she was always there to listen, I feel like maybe I should have listened more and been there for her. Then my life came to a cataclysmic stop on Sept 7th 2012 at about 10 :00am when a policeman knocked on my door at the hotel to inform me you are no longer living. I don't know exactly how he said it because