How can I do what you're asking of me? It's impossible for me to do what you want me to do. When I was down, you were the one that brought me up. You were the one to make sure I smiled when I was crying a river. You've become a huge part of my life how am I supposed to get unattached to you baby? You know I can never do that. I don't want to, but you say it's for the best? You're my entire world. Nothing else matters when I'm with you. When we're together, everything's fine. We're two incredibly happy people. I never thought I'd be able to love again, but you changed that baby. Because of you, I changed for the better. You and I both know that. I've learned a lot because of you. What you're asking of me is a lot, but I know your reason to why you're asking this of me. But see, I don't want you to worry about me afterwards. I'll be devastated of course, but baby I promise I'll try to stay strong, for you. For me. Just promise that wherever you will be, that you will wait for me until the day I see you again.♥💔

true, just so that I could wish to forget you.

You used too be my 11:11 wish... Now all I everwish is to forget you. To completely get over you, but something keeps holding me back. I have no idea what it is tho. How'd you move on so quickly? Maybe I really was so deeply in love with you and you just weren't as "in love" as you once told me you were. Maybe you never even loved me. Maybe you just loved the thought of me. The thought of us, but you never actually loved me. I don't understand how you can look at me and feel absolutely nothing torwards me. How is it that we once meant the world to eachother, at least that's what you would say but to me you really did, and now you can look at me as if I was never anything to you? You seem really happy without me... Happier than when you were with me. Everytime I see you, millions of memories come back to mind & I can't help but shed a couple of tears. First love, remember that? I sure do. I wish I didn't, but I do. I wish everything could just go away. All the memories all the pain. I wish 11:11 wishes came

All I really need is someone to talk to right now. Someone who'll just listen to me without saying anything back. Someone who won't judge me. Someone that'll just listen to me, hear me out. Sadly there's no one there for me. I've somehow managed to push everyone away. I've never felt this alone before. It's the worst feeling in the world. I have no one left. It's just me, all alone in this world. At least that's the way it seems right now.

I seriously need to get my shit together & quit acting the way I do. I'm being way too over protective. I'm getting way too jealous.. This isn't okay. I'm gonna end up smothering you or something & that's not what I want because I know what it's like to feel smothered & it's not a good feeling at all... But yet again, I just want you all to myself. Is that so wrong?...

I really have no idea what you see in me? Why are you with me? I'm nothing special. I'm not pretty, I'm not smart, I have no talents. I'm just plain & simple zayda here. There's so many other girls that are like 100x prettier & smarter & everything.. Why me? What about me? I really don't feel like I'm good enough for you. For anybody in that matter. I'm putting myself down here, but I just can't help & wonder. 😞

I kinda feel weird tho, since I'm pretty much just talking to myself on here. But yet again, Twitter's basically the same thing.

Since I have no fb right now, my bf has an insta, & certain people who follow me on twitter just wanna see me depressed & shit.. I guess I'll be venting on here whenever possible since hardly anybody is on. 😔😒😢