you look at me with the broken smile i love oh so much, & you tell me not to worry.how badly i want to trust you,yet your sea green eyes are telling me i can't.

you are constantly asked 'what do you want to be when you grow up?' I never thought I'd say happy. It seems a simple task, but yet i've not come to achieve it. That's all i can ask for. because i've taken and taken all these years and hurt the ones that love me most.everyone has their own happy. mine is to be better. not always living in constant fear and terror. afraid I won't be good enough for anyone. to be strong.