Today's rain is special.
It made my heart calm, seeming providential.
With the sound of pit and pat at the start
Then turn like drums you hear in festivals,
It was like the time has stop
And my worries vanish as it halt.

Today's rain is special.
It made my heart calm, seeming providential.
With the sound of pit and pat at the start
Then turn like drums you heard in festivals,
It was like the time has stop
And my worries vanish as it halt.

Please don't break my heart,
That's all I ask from you.
Let my feelings fade itself,
And my heart be distant from you.
The process might take a while,
'Cause moving on is just too hard.
But rest assured, I'll do my best
To forget you by soul and heart.

The first time I saw you,
I know you'll leave me soon.
Cause life is fleeting,
And yours even more so.
I tried distancing myself;
Avoiding attachment because I'm scared.
Yet here I am closing the distance,
Trying to reach you with my hand.
Now that you left, it made me realize:
"I may be used to being left behind,
but never to the pain it cause to my heart.
And that pain is a proof that I love you as much."

Like a flower bloomed that withered away so soon,Like a fleeting life doomed to be forgotten earlier than soon.

I somehow feel that I belong to that world, that I'm suppose to be there...

Favorite chinese novel- Rebirth of Malicious Empress of Military Lineage

You don't exist but in my heart. I hope to meet you soon, Chunyoung.

You can't really trust a person. Even after you spend so many years together, they would still abandon you.

Being hopeless and being helpless are not the same. But they are connected. Once you are hopeless, you become helpless

To Lola
You said you're ugly because you're old.
I said you're beautiful because you have a heart of gold.

To the Zion, you want to go,
So I firmly declare, "I'll go with you."
We stayed in our town to say goodbyes-
To the trees and river, and to our people.
To the Zion, we want to go,
But you left me and went alone.

In a daze, I look at the sunset;
Bright colors bloom and soon start to fade.
You, who is dull, came to my side,
And we both watch the dying light.
Darkness soon shrouded the place,
Sucking life force, fatigue take place.
You, who pitied me, brought me to the cypress tree,
So I could finally take a rest and be free.

Of course, I won't forget Shitou. He's just a supporting character and only had a small part in the novel but I like him. Yet, he died saving the female lead. I kinda hate that he died suddenly when I'm already enjoying the novel.

I'm liking the song Irony of vocaloid. I can relate...

Suddenly remembered that soldier in a webtoon. Although he was just an extra, he has the greatest impact. He sacrificed in order to trick the army of the protagonist. He doesn't want to die but he has to carry his mission. Despair takes over him as death loomed.
I felt that despair.

When I want to escape reality, I daydream about transmigrating and starting a new life there with different people.

It is hard not to blame people for causing others their misery.

I hope to meet people that won't push me aside.

She's back to antagonizing. Now that I think of it, she's just like the villain in a novel that I read. Someone who is hiding behind a mask...Pretending to be kind and innocent...