I use to know the grown up you I don't know what happen to him I would love to know him once again the one who stood by his girls ie me and jam and would never hurt them. Anyone seeing this and has questions or comments can call or write me I never cheated I never gave permission for that eather I am not a sharing kind of person when it comes to my love of my life he was mine and that was it. I love you always Crystal

I miss you so much it hurts. Still and I can't figure out how to do what you did and how that this all don't matter how u say u care about me to others but just not the way we were how I don't understand I'm so lost I miss my best friend I just keep trying to find ways and they all end up wrong and dead ends that you want me to be happy and to just move on you made me happy for the most part I don't understand I say it over and over to myself how u spend that long with someone and it's like when did it start where they just stop caring and why and like ya my brain never Fucking stops I just want to lay in bed with u and jam and work it all out use help and just ya I know u don't I just look and feel so stupid for putting so much in and never knowing when I stopped

My second counseling appt went ok but was hurt from what I heard after I walked alot with it. The only words that can come to me is this is r first break up sents jam was born and I love you and are family and I would do anything to put are family back together with you. I have read I telling me to move on but I just can't do that when you love someone of 14yrs I just can't and I won't I will be single forever cause I lost the only one I cared for in sorry you let things get to ur head and make u feel like I didn't love you and I let ur head run I in the wrong direction cause I could never step away from us are family never in a million years I love you always have and always will

love you more then words can say lost with out you forever gone you were my bestfriend and lover you had all the right words to say calm down we got this I enjoyed many time with you in life and I wish to continue on but it b blind right now And I don't know why I said ur heart belonged to me and mine has always been yrs I wish I had the right words to open ur heart once again to show u r good times and they out way r bad any day relationships have ups and downs I must work hard at them not give up I never did you I stood by u cause u were a good man to me and always will be just need some help to work together once again and make it the best forever I love you and miss you

I love and miss you as the days go by , I wish you have me time to deal with you stepping out on me I swear on everything I have I never did to you that you and my family is all I worked for. Now you are done with me but I feel we could work through anything when you have a loving relationship it's up and down and we were both down u will never know or understand my love for you and you have gave up on us so fast I just can't understand it 14yrs my heart hurts so much and miss ur smile ur laugh ur eyes and the way you looked at me and now you do those things with someone else it's so hard to let go of the feelings and emotions you have for one person it's hard to here from other ppl that u had let go along time ago but I know u were reaching out and I just can't believe it and I thought I was ur one and only and no one could compare but I guess they were just words when you move on so fast but I still love you and always will for as long as I love you Kelly Eric Morris