I am trying to fight dieting. I need to diet, but all I want to do is eat. Its hard to do this, you know what I mean. I love food so much. I need to eat all the time, cause I am depressed, but I need to fight. I need to get out this situation and be happy again. Why does it seem like when I take risk, I pay for it for a very long time. I am sick of paying for my risk. I want to live and enjoy life to the fullest. I will have to beg for a chance to take my life to the fullest. I deserve the best and so do many others. I don't want to be on top of the world but I want to put my name on it. I want to show the world I was here and I made my mark. It seems that someone wants to stand in my way and some people want to as well. Get out my way, I am about to blow up.