Just once I wish something would actually go the way it's supposed to. I'm so tired of things going wrong. Tired of things looking good then falling apart in front of me with no way of recovery. Having people come into my life just long enough to become important and then walk away or in the case of what's about to happen be taken away I doubt anyone will ever see this. I feel alone. I just feel like giving up. Feel like quitting. I wish I could just disappear. But I can't. I can't afford to. Both financial and because of people who rely on me. I'm tired of life. Tired of how things are. But it doesn't matter. None of it does.