Hey baby boy its mama its the dreaded 7th again. Its been 64 months of sadness for me i miss you so much i cant stand it. Some days are worse some weeks are worse this week has been awful. We ate jerod pizzas last nite & that made me sad they were good though. The weather is terrible dont know how i am going to go to work the roads are very scarey and i dont want to really risk my life but this is the busy time of year. Our baby cub is growing inside of Brea hes starting to stick out saddens me i dont get to see her everyday she sends me pictures, I wish they lived closer. Kaes doing good she a sweet girl and has a very nice boyfriend i know you<d like him. Buddy i cant even express my hurt to you when does it get better or easier i dont believe it doescuz i<ll never let you go. I love you so much.