This is the only place I can write and no one will see. I am so lost, my minds stuck and my heart feels broken. I don't know why I still love Sarang, but there I typed it. I still love him, I still think of him and the worst part is I am married. I don't wear my ring anymore, and I don't really feel like I'm missing something, except for Sarang, I'm missing him a lot right now. He really threw me through a ringer. I just wish I could talk to him but he won't talk back he hates every inch of me. And that truth, I must accept. The ugly truth

why do i feeel this waaay?

I had the craziest dream the other night. I don't like when I have dreams that affect me during the day. I'm so stuck on what I dreamt while trying to just push it out of my head...

This is the only place I get to write and know no one will see it. I feel like my facebook is so invaded along with my Instagram. Everyone's reading/viewing my stuff and forming their own opinions. Well my husbands family mostly. I don't what it is but I have weird feelings when I think of them. Kind of like a negative vibe. Wow it feels nice to be able to write that. It's nice to express yourself and be in your own world. I feel like facebook is so judgmental while MySpace use to be so free spirited. You felt like you got to know a person by viewing their myspace profile. Anyways, Scarlett is asleep, and I'm laying next to her a little bored and a little hungry. My tummy keeps growling but I don't want to eat cause I just brushed my teeth. My head hurts a tad. I think I'm going to go watch Hawaii 5 O lol I love that show but it sure does make Hawaii seem like it has tons of crime. Peace for now. I haven't said that in awhile haha. I feel like I'm sixteen again.

MySpace is so confusing now, I honestly don't know how to work this or what I'm doing when I click stuff??? I miss the old myspace:( with the cool customized profiles. Everyone was so creative & wrote more about themselves. It was like your own little world. And now it's weird. Lol

w0ah