its hard with this and all of the memories i have on this site..the music to..just a rush of things..its so weird how fast time has flown by and how people have grown up and apart..we all have lives to live and familys to worry about...everythings happening so fast...its like im going the speed of sound everyday..i know for a fact that i dont have any friends that get on this site anymore and thats okay..its easier to vent to a silent crowd...i hate feed back...but it took me so many years to figure out how to be happy...attempting suicide and just being so down in the dirt that nobody can help you...but you...took years to learn to be hopeful..im married now and im happy...its still weird to say that im married...always thought id either die alone or fucking some bitch i dont care for..but im proof that life goes on...eternity is what you make it..