HoW am I supposed to be positive? All I can think about is her. She went to Philly to see her friend. And obviously to go see that douchebag as well. I was thinking, how are we supposed to be friends? She's just not a decent person. I thought she was but the evidence I collected shows me otherwise. I suppose what really bothers me is that she said she'd text me when she arrived. Of course she didn't. I texted her good night and she didn't respond at all. I feel like I'm nothing to her now. Maybe I should act like it. She is nothing but troubled, nothing but a future of pain. But she is someone I care about. I never thought someone I care about would do me like this.