Fuck it. It's over. I hate this. I hate myself. Fucking fuck. I'm worthless? I gave all I could. All of myself. I guess I'm not enough. She doesn't love me anymore. Repetition. She doesn't love me anymore, she doesn't love me anymore, she doesn't love me anymore. I don't have a friend like that anymore. I had a place I fucking belonged for the first time in my life. Its gone now. This is what I am. I push people I want close to me far away. I can't understand. Why do I try so hard? Why wasn't it enough? I need a drink. Nothing to drink. I need to get drunk. Nothing to drink. She doesn't love me anymore. She doesn't love me anymore. I'm a dead end to her.