I just discovered something in my subconscious that's kind of disturbing. Everybody tells me I complain too much and express gratitude toolittle, and I do. I know I do. So I've been trying to force myself to be more grateful. I have discovered that I actually have a fear of gratitude. It sounds silly but it's true! Instead of expressing my gratitude to God, I actually try to hide it from Him (as if that were possible) because I'm afraid — terrified! — that the moment God finds out that I appreciate something, He'll take it away (or so the pattern of my life would seem to indicate). I know it's crazy! I know it's wrong! But it's a very real part of my sick mind. So how do I fix it?