Hey so I heard what occurred. I am sorry that you must feel so lost in life right now to even have considered your actions. However remember that Gods love is greater than any sin we can make. I encourage you to read a book that was a blessing for me. Its link is below www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/1590525027/ref=mp_s_a_1_1?qid=1400115999&sr=8-1
I also encourage you to see a movie when it comes out soon on dvd. Ill attach the trailer for you below.
www.google.com/search?ie=UTF-8&client=ms-android-att-us&source=android-browser&q=ragamuffin+trailer
with that said. I hope you learn from your mistakes. I probably don't know much and am ignorant on many levels of what happened. I mean this message not to offend but as a friend of mine in high school who made that time enjoyable for me my hand are folded for you in prayer.
