or somewhere around there I have a major allergy that affects my health to where keeping on the weight at times is difficult and when I mean major allergy I mean deathly allergic I'm deathly allergic to crab apples. I have green eyes with a blue ring around them depending on the surroundings there more blue than green, tan complexion. Single. Kind of grew up all over the place and was taught very well but there has been a few life changing events that occurred throughout life and there were times that I wasn't all that great of a person and sometimes with certain types of people and the experiences gone through its a little rough so I do try to refrain from losing it. I used drugs after high school majority of the time but I have been clean for almost two years now March 22 is the last time I used anything I also graduated and successfully completed a Drug Court program March 25, 2013 and they do say "it's only a matter of time before you use again" "Once an addict always an addict" and that may be very true but I was taught very well in the program that a use is just a use and how to get back into recovery and stay clean, there is more to life than just using and abusing. I received a high school diploma. I don't hang around everybody like I used to so I can keep my priorities straight like work and work towards the goals that I have and not much else besides going camping, fishing and stuff like that. I do have a couple or a few beers to relax after work or on my days off. I don't even like taking over the counter pain relievers for headaches and all that other stuff I will take Aleve or Alka-Seltzer though. Other than that I'll have to post a short bibliography or something.

Some of my first memories in life turned out not to be the greatest. I remember September third 1987 I experienced a life threatening allergy it was around 10:00am when a fire was intentionally lit and the person that lit it knew I was allergic but I didn't. The fire was lit in some weeds in front of a crab apple tree it started burning all the old branches and stuff that had fallen to the ground over the years and next thing I knew smoke blew up in my face and I lost all control of everything breathing, body movement and I must say that was the most scariest thing I've ever been through in life. I also remember the neighbors very well now Shea which is my neighbor today, and the family next door that watched what was happening at the time I was introduced to later after laying in the dirt and hot ashes for around fifteen minutes till the EMT's showed up ambulance and firetruck, because my brother had ran to the house and called 911. The paramedic knew exactly what to do, I guess he looked at the tree, and burnt surroundings, then a look at the piece of shit that lit the fire and the words that came out of her mouth, then one look at me then proceeded to inject ammonium chloride into my right arm pumped my chest a few times and I woke up shitting myself from the medication working by removing the allergy screaming scared of the situation running straight at the man latching around his neck. And the only thing he tried to do was calm me down and talk to me by asking me a few questions like my name, then he asked if I were to ever have kids and I were to have a son what would I name him so I asked him what his name was and he said Matt so I said Matt. Then after they left I was taken over to the neighbors fence to meet them and the man could ask what they saw well I got to meet Sean, Jen, and their three kids Sean, Ashley, and Danielle, I also had a spiritual awakening if that's what you'd call it. Well after leaving that fence I was running across the way to the house following the man I shit myself again. And from that point on I was shitting and pissing myself and crying cause I couldn't feel it. The only thing I felt was my bodily functions running down my legs. I didn't know what was going on I was using the bathroom before fully trained and everything. There was another time I was camping with my brother and a couple of other people when the made a crab apple jelly and called it plum jelly intentionally telling me that it was ok for me to eat it. I know who supplied the crab apples and the recipe, and I know who made it. My brother told me not to eat it that it was made out of crab apples, I thought it looked like a plum jelly, but it wasn't because a few seconds after eating it on toast my body had an allergic reaction to it and I remember my brother telling me to drink from my canteen so I did and that counteracted the allergy because my brother had been filling up the canteens from the creek and I also remember him keeping an epi pen on him to put my medicine in food, water, or the best way injected so it would enter the blood stream and throughout my body faster to keep me healthy without problems. So from the first intentional incident on till 3rd grade I was shitting and pissing myself having problems with bodily functions and digestion issues. I can only say thank you and be extremely grateful to the man, the EMT Matt, the neighbors, and everybody that showed up for that birthday and picked out a strip for my quilt from those big bags of fabric, I still my quilt and yes I still sleep with it even after 26 years, actually its 25 going on 26 years. And It's BLUE AND PURPLE PRETTY LITTLE FLOWERS WITH A HALF OF AN ASS A HORSES ASS WITH A DOUBLE DONKEY KICK AND THE NEGATIVE PREGNANCY TEST. Yes the quilt is old with a few rips that might need to be stitched or something I might have to have it fixed someday. I also have another quilt that goes with the one with strips of fabric, It's not quite as worn as the other one and I remember the person that made it for me she's a very good person and has helped me a lot in life and I can remember we all tried to get the smell out of that blanket for awhile spraying it out with a water hose and leaving it on the fence to air out then dumping tons of dish soap and cleaners etc. and nothing seemed to work, I guess pissing and shitting the bed that much It's going to have a smell to it especially if it set in for a bit, but I have that blanket today and it no longer has that stinch to it but I don't sleep with it because the fabric is coming apart in little particles and my glands in my throat swell up, it still means a lot to me and have no plans on getting rid of it. I still might consider getting a new blanket to sleep with eventually when I get a new one, It'd have to be the right one though and that would be calling it very comfortable. I played soccer for two years. The first year the team was called "The Green Machine" and I remember one of the coaches for sure, it was new and kind of crazy or I was and having problems with the bruises up and down my backside, legs, etc. The second team I played on was "Maroon Nailers" and I remember our coach Roxanne and some of my other teammates Salena, Danielle, Mikey, Lacey, Donovan, Brian, Clifford, Chantelle, and Lisa the goalie from the year before. I also remember Amber playing on another team, for some reason she'd always score when I was goalie, she'd get right up to the goal look up at me with a smile then look down and kick the ball right into the goal me I was powerless still looking at her or if I had tried to block the goal it was to late, and yes my teammates where mad but I couldn't help it I even tried to have them put me on the sidelines or something. I even met someone the day soccer pictures were taken in 1994, soccer mom or a soccer mom and that's about the third or fourth time I met her and one thing I'll say is she's a good strong woman. She did tell me that one day I would remember and to look at that picture. I had gone through a lot of changes after being taken out of the third grade, I got taller, my teeth straightened out, my hair was longer, and had a little bit of muscle or meat not much but a little bit, I didn't have bruises anymore and I wasn't shitting and pissing myself anymore. I went back to school in the fourth grade. When I got into the fifth grade I started to fail, I had the same teacher my brother had so halfway through I moved until the seventh grade I moved back to Corning. I wasn't a bad kid but I wasn't the greatest. I ended up having teachers that didn't like my brother or heard of my brother and me and It didn't matter if I did good or not, when I got into high school the had put me in all introductory and basic math, reading, and english classes for a year and a half and had been told that all I had to have was two hundred and something credits to graduate with a high school diploma but they didn't tell me I had to meet the school required classes and and that I had a counselor to make sure that I had the school required classes until it was to late and I wouldn't have graduated even if I had gone to summer school and took extra classes like a zero period class before school, but I didn't give up I met with a counselor and she put me in some required classes only to have the teacher Mr. Rob tell me to get the hell out of his class because I was going to fail and that if I didn't he would make sure that I did because my last name and my brother and that's ok I went back to the counselor and changed classes. At least I did spend some time with Amber that year. So halfway through sophomore year I made a decision and asked my Aunt Nina if I could move back to Bakersfield with her so I could at the very least graduate high school and do something with my life and at that point it was the best decision I ever made. I had a good counselor Mr. Gonzalez who put me in good classes and had it to where I'd graduate mid-term senior year. I got have some good times with cousins, family and ended up having a part time job for around two years. I did end up screwing up again to where I didn't graduate even with class in 2003 but I did get my High School Diploma two weeks after class and I capitalized that because I'm sure I wouldn't be doing that good without that or a GED. I've been employed at a few places mainly working with food, but have worked as a temp for construction doing some remodeling, oil spill cleanups, building boat docks, to yard work, some roofing, even worked at a cemetery a couple of days for a temp agency, there was also a point in my life where I was on the road a lot I got to see a lot of places in others states and enjoy seeing the country. I currently work at Round Table Pizza, I'm usually a driver, but I do roll dough some days, and I clean a lot no matter what position I work because that is part of the job and I don't want anybody getting sick, or having problems whether it be customers, coworkers, or myself. I've been In quite a few relationships over the years that I screwed up some more than once and I'm sorry for my wrongs cheating, anger, yelling, or just making an ass of myself. Yes, I do have kids, looking back on it I think I might have like 11 kids to be exact. Been single for at least seven years. I do the best I can do these days, I don't want people to feel sorry for me for anything I'm ok, alive and I don't have those problems anymore I've even been able to return the favor a few times in helping save somebodies life not looking for anything in return and for that I'm grateful. And there's only one person I will ever be with again other than that I'll stay single. I've only had one broken bone throughout life at age 2 I snapped my forearm in half falling out of that tree. I am a child of god, definitely a believer of our lord and savior Jesus Christ and he does work in mysterious ways and he works for me and I don't have to go to church or read the bible everyday to make me a believer because I was already a believer before even going to church and reading the bible and about god.