My son, Brad Downs, 21, his wife, Samantha, 19, and a young man I loved as a son, Chris Dafoe, 24; were killed October 6, 2007 by a drunk driver, Deborah Stewart. She was 38 years old, blond hair and 150 lbs. When she drove 80 mph around a curve and a hill with no headlights and killed herself along with my 3 kids by hitting them in a headon collision. I did not grieve my kids' until the 4th year after they were killed. I turned against God and I hated Him for allowing my kids to be killed. He could have prevented it. I could not blame the drunk driver; she was killed. So I turned on God.

For a whole year and 2 months, I was out of my head. I stopped loving God and I stopped loving my wife... Instead of turning to God, I turned away from Him. I put my wife through hell. I didn't want her love...

On Dec. 6, 2012 she kicked me out. I left and tried to commit suicide. Somehow I wind up back at the house. I laid down on the couch, she was locked up in the bedroom. I slipped into a deep sleep or vision if you were. I stood before God and told him to stay out of my life. I saw His tears as He told me I would have what I wanted and as He turned His back on me, He said I would have eternal separation from God; just like every sinner on judgement day would have. My wife's prayers saved me that night. Due to limited space I can't give my whole testimony; but I took christ as my Saviour and Lord that night and my wife and I went to marriage counselling and I went to grief counselling. I was baptized on Feb. 9, 2013 and my wife and I renewed our vows. We've been married 32 years and we feel like newlyweds. My wife and I have started a non profit in honor of our kids called AVID-Advocates for Victims of Impaired Driving. We are partnered with We Save Lives (wesavelives.org) a group working for Highway safety. The president is Candace Lighner, the original founder of Mothers Against Drunk Drivers, now Mothers Against Drunk Driving.

We are the Voice of the Victims...and we will be heard!

Don't drink and drive; someone did and my three died!