In 5 months it'll be 4 years...... Do you know what I've been through?!? Do you know how much pain you've caused?? YOU RUINED EVERYTHING!!! You made me hate the man I love. You made me resent my own relationship! You made me unable to trust him with anyone ever again!!! You dug your way so far under my fucking skin that no matter how deep I fucking cut I can't get you out. You still linger, you still play your petty games. You won't leave. So fine....... You fucking win. After all these years I'm fucking tired. I deserve better. I deserve happiness without some whore breathing her filth down my spine. I deserve a man that cherishes me and only me as a lover not one who tries to pull a love triangle. Everyone gets broken that way but I get shattered. You two can test the waters....see how long she lasts Austin because I know her type. One man isn't enough. But then again one woman wasn't enough for you. I'm so done. I'm so fucking hurt. I hate you both. You both ruined everything. I don't want to love him anymore but I do. JUST FUCKING GO AWAY!!! BOTH OF YOU!!! I'd give anything right now to erase it all.

In 5 months it'll be 4 years...... Do you know what I've been through?!? Do you know how much pain you've caused?? YOU RUINED EVERYTHING!!! You made me hate the man I love. You made me resent my own relationship! You made me unable to trust him with anyone ever again!!! You dug your way so far under my fucking skin that no matter how deep I fucking cut I can't get you out. You still linger, you still play your petty games. You won't leave. So fine....... You fucking win. After all these years I'm fucking tired. I deserve better. I deserve happiness without some whore breathing her filth down my spine. I deserve a man that cherishes me and only me as a lover not one who tries to pull a love triangle. Everyone gets broken that way but I get shattered. You two can test the waters....see how long she lasts Austin because I know her type. One man isn't enough. But then again one woman wasn't enough for you. I'm so done. I'm so fucking hurt. I hate you both. You both ruined everything. I don't want to love him anymore but I do. JUST FUCKING GO AWAY!!! BOTH OF YOU!!! I'd give anything right now to erase it all.

I don't know what to do. I love you. I hate you. I don't know what side will win in the end. I'm trying to forget but whenever you kiss me I feel sick to my stomach knowing you kissed her while with me. That's beyond betrayal. I could never hurt you like you did to me and that's not fair. The fact that you're still friends with her makes me even more sick. The fact that YOU CAN'T LET HER GO makes me wonder what I'm even worth to you..... If you had any respect for me at all you'd be forward with me. What is she to you Austin Llanas? What am I to you? How do we fix us? Do I want to fix us. Do I just let go?