Wednesday, November 18, 2008
I had the weirdest dream last night. I rarely have dreams. It goes I was rather anxious and annoyed at like 11pm
in my condo with my sister so I went for a drive. As I was driving I was thinking why the hell is the sun out and
why is there so many cars at this hour. It was as busy as rush hour. So since driving wasn't releasing my anxiety
and anger I went back home. My sister was there all sitting all chill saying wipe off your feet. It's not holy to
walk in with dirty feet. The rapture is coming.
When I woke up I had a few questions. Why was the sun up at 11pm. Why was I living with my sister? Why did I
have a condo in west Santa Rosa? Why was I annoyed to the point of madness? Is the rapture really coming? Anyways
that's my response.
Life is still going. I really like the "Super Average Podcasts". It's like free therapy.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
I'm still alive just counting my blessings. A few things have been wired lately. There’s leadership changes at my church, I’m communicating with different people,
and my classes are having me think out side of my box. That includes English and Web Design. I’m benefiting from it though. I feel like I’m actually learning something
in them. It's been a crazy couple of months. I think I’m gonna pick up a left handed guitar soon just so set if it is something I’d be interested in using.
More and more I keep thinking Sonoma County is not my home anymore. I have a hard time finding work I’d enjoy making a career out of and people to chill with. I guess part of it is my problem but
even so maybe just starting fresh is always an experience of its own.
Check out my video list and updated personal website if you'’re bored enough. I just wanna say thanks to everyone who has had the patience to get to know me. Have a good one
Sunday, August 31, 2008
I just would like some input on what people may think about me becoming a spiritual leader. To be honest if I were to get a group of five or more people together that would like to
explore the biblical gospel then I would be more than willing to lead it. I'd call it "the Bible uncensored." Starting from the beginning of the Bible, I've read up too the middle of
John. That's just about the end of the Bible. To me there is a lot of unspoken parts of the bible that may seem uncomfortable at first but I believe that if they are clearly explain the
topic and the purpose then it's much more power full then just explaining a small chunk. I've never out spoken about the my web site that I put a few years ago. The site is located at
http://staytrue.info. It's about taking a common perspective of people's sexuality and filtering out the impurity and building up a more wholesome character. I haven't touched it in a
while so I'm sure I could rewrite the site with more clarity but the site isn't a main focus for me at this time. All I can say is times may change but a heart has always been created the
same way.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't too serious about everything but other times I wish people would get more real about their life.
Friday, August 22, 2008
Nothing has changed too much. I'm feeling like I'm finnishing up school at the Junior College. Yay. I'm still talking to the same people.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
I finally bought SylvanFinger.info
and SylvanFinger.com. There's not much
on there but at least I have some web space.
Sunday, April 6, 2008
I'm waiting impatiently because I want to do everything but I don't have the
time for it or the patients for it because I want it now but I can't have
everything anyways. So depressing. So I bought some happy music so
that it can help me slow down and be satisfied. Cause it's only the
world. I'll be plowing through the last section of school so if I seem
busy it's because I am. (rockin' in my chair) I take Sundays off so
I'm relaxing right now. I'm socially getting older and less shy.
It's awesome. I have Erin Rivers to thank for it and my work Powell's
Sweet Shoppe and God of course. I'll stop rambling and just say pray for
me what my head doesn't explode nor do I lose my 'tude.
Thursday, March 11, 2008
I wonder what life would be like to me if I was literally blind. I
wouldn't be able to judge people by the way they look. I'd be more patient
to listen to what people say. I wouldn't have to worry if people looked at
me and think I'm weird I wouldn't know. Hell with the people that think
I'm unattractive. I think I'd worry mush less. Right now I'm
thinking of the book of Mathew which talks of worrying about the things we see.
He talks of worrying about the clothes we where, what's going to happen tomorrow
and other things. People do act different when they are alone then in a
crowd even though the alone personality is the most honest and true personality.
I guess I just pray that I can learn to have a blind and peer pressure-less
personality. Sounds emo but it true.
Sunday, Febuary 5th
Everybody vote for John McCain
Thanks
Sunday, December 16, 2007
I ecstatic that I only have one more
day of school. It's been a crazy semester. I over loaded my self but
that's just because I want to get through school fast and I want to develop more
than one kind of skill. But I finally get a break. I realized that I
don't like to change. I like just sitting back and thinking or I'd rather
work myself to death. Also I realized I don't have much of a sense of
class.
My church put on a play called the
Christmas Post this weekend and it's really comforting that my church is making
a step in the right direction. It seems like it's moving forward.
With all that's been going on it almost seemed like we weren't making much of a
difference but now it's like we got our focus straight. We used a crew of
members that haven't been to the church lately and didn't think we would see and
some how it became a hit. God Bess that. Thank you. I've
gotten a view of life that's more entertaining than that I mostly had.
Merry Christmas.
Now if you are really that concerned
for me I have a question for people. Whenever I look at some one I tend to
see that crap that's going on in people lives like right away. Is it just
me or is it common for people to see this. I mean I'm harsh. Flip
flop people are laid back and lazy, spazes are whores, people who act like they
are number one are a** h***s, and people that are most humble seem to be the
most caring. I makes me sad. I've been thinking about what Solomon,
from the Old Testament, had to say about life. For so long I've just kept
to myself because I didn't see a point to talking to people. They just act
like you care most of the time and they'll most likely forget what you tell them
so what's the point. I've been thinking of this since I was in early
elementary school. Solomon says everything is meaningless under the sun.
He's saying that everything we physically do will die some day so there isn't a
point. I guess I've always been looking for the right and best way of
doing things. But there really isn't one. It's just unfathomable to
me. So now I'm 19 and I've just started to become more of a risk taker and
out spoken, and just try to enjoy life as apposed to living in a safe square
box. That is why I wrote the previous news/ journal entry about manners.
It's about me tying to experience life in a polite, God focused, "Cross-eyed"
life.
I think if Socrates would have read
the books written by Solomon he wouldn't have had so many questions. Yes
Solomon was around before Socrates.
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