she's soooo highhhhhhhh high above me she's so lovely i've sang this song on my birthday while i was at the park swinging high on the swings overlooking the manhatten skyline at night here i am a few days later and you have that song =O ^_^
hey huggles, how have you been lately? are things getting any better or are you still living with your bro? tough times.. they always seem to occur when you least want them. hope you're ok, give me an update soon xo
HELLO huggles dear ;) i will write you a longer message tonight when i get home from uni, but i thought i would check in now and let you know you're in my thoughts.. especially after reading your last message. Things could be worse though.. so keep trying to look on the bright side of things. At least you have your brother to turn to when things get ugly at home, some people have nobody.. its so hard when there's nobody at all which of your parents do you get along with better? there were times when i really wanted to move out also.. i understand what you mean when you say you dont want to be a burden to your brother. but as your brother, he's the one other person apart from your parents that should feel obligated to take you in, and look after you, for as long as need be
bee a while since i left a comment...been a while since i looked at your page, too...i barely get anytime on myspace anymore, haha...well, we talked yesterday, so, i know kinda what's going on....I'M GONNA SEND YOU AN E-MAIL!!! :D
where are you staying? i thought maybe things would have gotten better for you at home by now, sorry to hear they havent :( Are your parents calling you to come back? please try work things out with them, its so hard trying to make it on your own.. yes living alone has its benefits, but not when you cant afford it. And you cant right now.. right? huggles i'm worried about you matey.. i know what its like to fight with parents, it sucks that you can never win or prove yourself right.. cause what they say is the only thing that matters, and theres no changing that. Yes parents can be a burden.. i mean, i'm not saying raising children is easy, but god.. some parents need to be raised by their children.. lol :p.. seriously, trying to reason with them is like trying to snatch candy from a child. they're stubborn and unwilling to compromise..
hello hello! ;) i tried posting you a comment last night but myspace was doing maintanance on your profile and i couldn't. Hows it been, whats going on? Its saturday here, i'm about to go shopping.. i have to do groceries these days too :p but i quite enjoy it actually, except i hate cooking for one.. i'll make too much and theres no one to share it with :p Living alone is hard i must admit, but theres a few benefits.. like now i have a lot more me time, just space to do nothing at all, but think.. :p Its been over a week since my parents left and even though a part of me seeks their presence, theres another part that just feels (and this sounds bad..) like a ton of relief.. theres no one on my back all day every day, telling me what to do. And thats such a wonderful feeling.. knowing that the decisions i make are entirely my own now
hey Huggles! ;) checking in to see whats going on, you havent signed in for a while, i'm thinking thats typical.. some hottie must be keeping him busy ;) hows you? xo
halo precious one! ;) hey huggles i got news for you, just because we're single doesnt mean we're not fabulous, so we should TOTALLY treat ourselves so damn fine today.. lets eat our chocolate and smell the roses like those couples do! :p
Good Afternoon! Hmm? contact. I've never seen the movie I don't think. The book is a textbook that was apparently it was donated to the school and the teacher always sees me reading so he let me have it, it's an American Literature book. Really interesting, it has a lot of poetry in it. Anyways, how was your day?
Ello there! How do you do on this fine afternoon? I just got out of class, I'm so happy my teacher let me have a literature book that I'm perusing through now. it's beautiful!! XD Well, hope to chat w/ you soon! ttyl.
hey huggles you :p whats you been to? i had a pretty easy going day, kind of just trying to clear my mind of anxiety about uni and moving back to Newcastle alone :p I'm hoping it wont be too hard.. but like moving anywhere, theres always so much to do and stress with getting organised. My mother keeps tugging on my shirt and crying on me.. lol, i think she has an attachment issue :p and ofcourse, she's still working so hard to try and convince me how well off i'd be with her moving back with me.. lol, and LOL :) have a really cool weekend by the way..
lol, i sounded a little too vague the other day :p What i meant was there was this boy, who i sorta liked.. and i'm never intending to like him again, EVER.. cause he committed some ugly things this past week, and that hurt like hell :( but i really dont care anymore, its not worth it, i dont think it ever was.. he couldn't have ever loved me the way i loved him anyway.. i really want to buy this really cool camera i saw the other day, its a canon and i'm trying to save up for it.. but i know it'll take me a while, i dont know how i'm gonna surive this year.. i have to move back near my uni soon, and rent is going to be a killer.. i'm trying not to stress though :p
HI my huggle bear :) how have you been? i'm okies.. just a little sad at the moment, my future husband in my dreams is having an affair.. ahaha :P lol its not that funni, but i gotta laugh to make myself feel ok. What have you been up to? i'm just going along with the usual, by day i tend to go into the city, mostly just browsing.. by night i'm usually home, or going for a drive with my bro. I'm still having pointless fights with my mother cause i really dont want her to go back to my old town with me when i'm trying to finish uni.. it'll be impossible, shes just making things extra hard anyway, i'm going to go and .. think :P i have a lot on my mind actually, and just trying to make sense of it all.. talk to you soon huggles xo
hey huggles ;) whats news? me- not much, i'm just thinking how fast everything is going, sometimes it all feels like a dream.. cause nothing lasts long enough to be anything more than.. the past :p I've been arguing with my mother cause she wants to come back to Newcastle (where i use to live) with me, and i really wish she WOULDN'T.. its so laughable, i'm 21 years old and she's arguing with me about who's going to be my caretaker OMG, its the funniest but most annoying thing.. life would be so much easier without her in the picture, and i'm trying to make her understand that she's needed far more here than ever with me. but its not working, i can't change her mind cause she's one of the most stubborn people ever.. anyway, apart from that :p.. i've just been hanging out, i went shopping and bought 3 pairs of shoes i really BADLY wanted, and it made me feel so much better lol.. i dont know what it is about shoes, but its my preferred choice of therapy and it works hehe ;)
I know what you mean, my parents fight like crazy.. maybe 2 days a year they wont, that’s usually when one is away traveling somewhere :p My mother has a way of ruining all special occasions, so I never really look forward to birthdays or Christmases simply cause I know what will come, I no longer expect anything.. its far too easy to predict the outcome anyway.. I really like shutting myself away from them, it’s probably not a great thing, but there’s something quite comforting about spending time on my own.. and not having to deal with all the problems in my home environment. I think one of the hardest things for me throughout the year is trying to survive uni and complete all my assessments on time while also living in the kaos that is home. Maybe I’m making it sound worse than it is :p I mean, its ok on most days, but I kinda think I have it extra hard with my parents.. they really suck at their job, I can’t see myself having a strong relationship with them in the future.
hello huggles, how have you been lately? did you have a fun NYE celebration, and more importantly, a FANTASTIC BIRTHDAY????? ;) hope it was really memorable, how did you spend it? my mother made cake today, when i have a piece i'll think of you and pretend i was at your birthday :)
Happy [early] BIRTHDAY! :D you are now legally able to do what you've already done before in all 50 states! well as of that day that myspace sold out to me =D
hey :) i know how you feel..not that i'm feeling that way now, but i do know the feeling.. yeah, maybe our parents are sorta alike, i don't get along much with my mother.. she kinda fucked up alot when i was younger, my parents have never supported me in my life and i dont expect them to now.. i'm not sad about it, it hurt when i was younger.. now i'm just..kinda like you in a way, mellow about it.. mellow about sh*t in the past, and maybe in a strange way, kinda glad that it happened, cause if it hadn't i'd be a different person today.. so how did you lose 2 friends? if you dont feel like sharing, thats ok.. i tend to not talk to people also when i'm feeling down.. or if i feel people think i'm better than i am, and deep down i know i'm not, and i don't deserve their nice words.. than i kinda walk away and stay on my own for a while, not keeping in contact, not caring about much except whatever is going on in my head don't write if it doesnt feel right at this time.. i know you really want to, and sometimes it helps to put your thoughts on paper, but at other times you just want to close your eyes and drown in your pillow.. i'm here for you if you wanna talk, i'm always here ok.. smile for me, even if you feel sad.. it might make you feel a little better :)
hey my huggle bear ;) how are you? i'm ok, things are ok.. still recovering from what could possibly be the most difficult and stressful move of my life.. i have this feeling of relief that feels like i've survived a hurricane, its funni to say i know, but its really how i feel. things were so tough for a while. My mother's in this negative mind frame and she's killing everyone's spirit (not that thats anything new..) but i'm trying to make the best of whatever i can.. i mean, change is something that life brings, whether we like it or not is irrelevant.. i think change is important, i just wish i had parents who were more supportive and less inclined to make their children feel like sh*t whenever they themselves feel down.. lol, hmm..probably a pointless ramble, please excuse the..ramble :p so.. so do tel, NEWS ;) how are you spending christmas and tell me what you wish for! i kinda wanted a camera this year, my brother has a nice one that i wish i could use (he never uses it, and he wont let me touch it..might as well hang it on the tree as a decoration :p).. but i doubt i'll be getting one, i cant quite afford the one i want yet.. and lets just say my parents arn't the kind of parents who care much about gifts.. talk son ;)
hey huggles* ;) i'm going to call you that from now on, its so cute! hey thanks for commenting my recent blog, i re-read the whole thing and i suddently realised like whoaa i've sorta said too much.. i guess i was kinda angry at the time, it all accumulated because i had been thinking about similar things to what i wrote, like how the world is changing so rapidly in its attitudes and lifestyles.. i saw some of it as bad cause i thought, this is why people dont care about the consequences of their behavior..cause they're too busy caring about themselves and how to make themselves different from everybody else, even if that means younger generations will follow and say 'hey, this is ok, its ok for me to do my own thing and screw everybody and manipulate my own body and pump sh*t into it and what not".. anyway, lol, i'm shutting up, i wrote that blog cause i needed to vent out my anger for a sec :P less than 2 days till we're moving.. it feels kinda surreal, it wont hit me until about a week later till my brain awakens and starts to wonder why my room looks different :p i'm having alot of trouble with my computer at the moment, its totally wrecked and keeps giving me this message that says itc caught insome infinate loop..i have no idea what that means, and i've been going to uni these last 6 days so i can use the computers there instead of fight with my brother to use his comp. I cant seem to log into my hotmail and gmail either..unless i'm at uni.. ok, so how you doin today and whats happening in your world? ;)
hello my echoing friend, you're online so i thought i'd be a bug :p
just to reply to your last comment..yea, being attracted to a stranger really blows, i know exactly what you mean.. its tough because you think you feel so much for them, but who you're really feeling for is just an image, because all you really know of them is what you see..not necessarily what you've experienced with them. love is a stupid ass gay thing and i believe in it for others, but not myself.. i tend to hold the heaviest shield around me when it comes to guys, and its not a good thing.. but then again, i only ever fall in love with guys who its impossible to have a relationship with, or who i'm destined to lose.. maybe Love just isnt for me, i'm only suppose to watch and learn and wish someday i could have something even close to similar
