About Me
UNDER CONSTRUCTION
i have let people do a lot of things to me that made me a dark person..
mean
cold
but..i feel lighter these days..and i'm letting
this shell go..this light has been coming over me..and like a balm, i feel pieces of who i was before i let people rip me out of myself returning
so i am embracing this crazy journey called life..
i've been happy and i've been joyous
i've been trusting and too open
i've been unhappy and i've been really a downer
i've been really suspicious and really closed off
and now...i'm in the middle trying to find common ground
because well...i kind of liked being that chipper person in the past...and i'm not really ready to let my acerbic tongue completely die..so if i can be somewhere in the middle..light and feisty...
then love will truly have brought me into myself...
and i truly believe love has brought more of myself out than any other experience i have encountered.
Because In Actuality
I didn't want to meet anyone..and there she was..and she just..completely changed ..everything..like if others had cracked open the door..she busted it wide open. and all this bright light and color streamed through me..
life is all about chance.
im not usually big on chance
But. well, how could i not take a chance when the most beautiful thing in the world was just staring me dead in the face? so. i took a chance. and i fell head over heels in love with the one person i never even knew I'd Like to Meet:
And she said:
"You're my joy and without you, I'm lacking in so many areas. I realized that I need u in order for my code 2 execute. :sigh: Together we operate."
but nothing in life is perfect...and nothing is guaranteed...
11 Feb: momma
28 Mar: the beginning
10 Nov: kaelin
13 Nov: kwanis face
27 Nov: chae.face
Name: Moni'ca
Age: 24
Job: Coffee Slave
Location: New York
Interests: i'm really into..reading..writing..a lot of thinking..like obscene amounts..life just boggles me..and i get caught up in the quandary of it. *sigh* lol. what else? i like to sit under trees and stare up through the leaves. -when the sun shines down through them? Omg! Love to actually. Gosh, now i want to do it right now! i like to just sit in the middle of big nature and feel how small, minute, and insubstantial little "i" is in the scheme of things.
New Mantra: I am not perfect. I am still learning. Today. I will make many mistakes. But that is okay. Because I am on a journey. And this journey is neverending, understanding, everevolving, supportive, nurturing, and evergrowing.
Today I am going to fall and get back up, and stumble again. But that second stumble may not lead to a second fall. And that. Is the whole point
