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des!'s Interests
General
risk, narwhals, new york city, kindness, communication, honesty, potential, human interaction, romantics of the hopeless variety, alcoholic beverages, makeouts, becky, the flesh as canvas, good sex, good friends, red wine, roses and gardenias, pens that write nicely, biting my fingernails, actively missing my best friend, spontanaeity, laughter, road trips, writing, body modification, poetry, photography, humor, mood and dissociative disorders, a clean bedroom, privacy, freedom, ben and jerry's karamel sutra OR godiva chocolate raspberry truffle, vanity, my dogs, shows, bad hair days, pretty eyes: blue ones or green ones, isabella soprano, lameness, toy cameras, SIB, tori tour, publication, cunning linguistics, articulation, good conversation, sam brown/explodingdog, chase melendez, psychology, philosophy, travel as a means of clearing one's head, literature, brooklyn, crazy motherfuckers, the number 6 and the letter d, sex toys, made-up languages, YOUR MOM.
Music
tori amos, the dresden dolls, charlotte martin, regina spektor, rasputina, rilo kiley, the cure, tegan and sara, the postal service, pj harvey, the shins, sunny day real estate, veruca salt, placebo, britney spears, modest mouse, cher, yyy, the reindeer section, courtney love, hole, mirah, now it's overhead, chicks on speed, arcade fire, matt nathanson, sleater-kinney, interpol, bloc party, broken social scene, wolf parade, clap your hands say yeah, the notwist, azure ray, cat power, group x, iron and wine, jenny lewis, the elected, youth group, neutral milk hotel, band of horses, ratatat, the shout out louds, the beach boys, tilly and the wall, the magnetic fields, the sounds, art in manila, editors, beirut, barzin, girl talk, the national, black kids, the ting tings
Movies
juno, mean girls, me and you and everyone we know, pan's labyrinth, el orfanato, children of men, across the universe, wristcutters: a love story, 28 days/weeks later, the last kiss, american beauty, garden state, closer, imagine me and you, fight club, almost famous, harold and maude, secretary, grease, gia, playing by heart, the devil's advocate, girl, interrupted, OR anything with kevin spacey or angelina jolie.
Television
the gilmore girls, degrassi, the l word, real sex, cathouse, weeds, huff, project runway, top chef.
Books
the perks of being a wallflower by stephen chbosky; the fountainhead by ayn rand; memoirs of a geisha by arthur golden; running with scissors by augusten burroughs; sexing the cherry/art & lies by jeanette winterson; sputnik sweetheart by haruki murakami; general: douglas coupland, poppy z. brite, natalie goldberg, diane diprima, e.e. cummings, sylvia plath, charles simic.
Heroes
tori amos, amanda palmer, charlotte martin, regina spektor, melora creager, diablo cody.
East Tennessee State University
Johnson City, TENNESSEE
Graduated: 2005
Student status: Alumni
Degree: Bachelor's Degree
Major: Psychology
Minor: Philosophy
Clubs: Psychology Club, Applied Psychology Lab
there's no such thing as autobiography, there's only art and lies.
ART:
take it as it comes
and take me as I am
i never was a good imposter
but i know how to dream
and don't know where i stand
i'm willing to admit i try too hard
stop playing with my heart
i'm waiting by the phone
afraid to be myself
afraid to be alone
but everytime it rains
i know it's good to be alive
--Charlotte Martin
"I find it hard to talk about myself. I'm always tripped up by the eternal who am I? paradox. Sure, no one knows as much pure data about me as me. But when I talk about myself, all sorts of other factors--values, standards, my own limitations as an observer--make me, the narrator, select and eliminate things about me, the narratee. I've always been disturbed by the thought that I'm not painting a very objective picture of myself.
This kind of thing doesn't seem to bother most people. Given the chance, people are surprisingly frank when they talk about themselves. "I'm honest and open to a ridiculous degree," they'll say, or "I'm thin-skinned and not the type who gets along easily in the world." Or "I am very good at sensing others' true feelings." But any number of times I've seen people who say they're easily hurt hurt other people for no apparent reason. Self-styled honest and open people, without realizing what they're doing, blithely use some self-serving excuse to get what they want. And those "good at sensing other' true feelings" are duped by the most transparent flattery. It's enough to make me ask the question: How well do we really know ourselves?"
--Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart
"And myself? Observe me. There is something to be gained from my surface uses, and perhaps a little more from my lower depths, but my very bottom? That's where I am alone, the observer and the observed.
I descend, I try to tell the truth, but the primitive diving-bell that I call my consciousness is a more fallible instrument than the cheap thermometer in my fish-tank. I may not have a very bottom, I may be much shallower than I like to think, or I may be a creature of infinity, for now confined. My real world, as I fondly call it, may be the necessary cable that holds me in waters I can manage."
--Jeanette Winterson, Art & Lies
who am i, if not one who listens
for words to stir from the silences they keep?
"John felt that he and everybody in the New World was a part of a mixed curse and blessing from God, that they were a race of strangers, perpetually casting themselves into new fires, yearning to burn, yearning to rise from the charcoal, always newer and more wonderful, always thirsty, always starving, always believing that whatever came to them next would mercifully erase the creatures they'd already become as they crawled along the plastic radiant way."
--Douglas Coupland, Miss Wyoming
"You can be a loner in New York and still be surrounded by people. You can really live your life like a story, and fly by the seat of your pants. Or you can stay home and order in. You can consume as much experience as you can stand. There's a lot of risk. I like risk."
I'm just some girl making her way in the big, bad city. I like the same things everyone else does. I consume music like I get paid to. I'm the same with words. I keep a camera and a notebook around. I shoot shows four nights a week. I like laughter, good beer, and dive bars. I am my own harshest critic. I think honesty, kindness, and politeness are important. I have some southern pride. I range from quiet and introspective to larger than life. I know now that I deserve only the best love, and I'm finding people in my life who are willing to give me that. I love to have fun, but I also like to make sure that the people around me are safe and taken care of. I miss my mom and my best friend.
Who I'd like to meet: diablo cody
jenny lewis
regina spektor
I am completely sober on the left coast, but we're having dinner tonight in Napa. We'll see if I remain sober or not. Have fun!!! I come home next Wednesday. You?
Oh that's super exciting! Weddings are cool, and ridiculously emotional... Wait what do you do? Like.. I don't think I ever really knew. Or I did and forgot.
Yeah I hear you on that. And Hi to you too :0) Sorry I have been mad busy. I move in two weeks and getting everything settled. What trouble are you getting into this weekend?
oh my fucking god, des!! i don't know if it's because i'm still a little drunk from last night, but that picture made me actually tear up a little bit. it's so amazing how different everyone looks. and it just proves that i've loved ya all along!! LOL!!! <3
