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who i used to be. |
Reality
october 14,2007
- I smoke way to much.
- never go skinny dipping in october.
- i will never learn how to dance.
- seeing other couples makes me want to cry.
- my eyes are really pretty.
october 15, 2007
- No one wants to listen to me, espesualy when i have something important to say.
- People lie alot. and i hate it.
october 16, 2007
- giant squids are the coolest animal in the ocean, buy me one.
- terrance has the cutest mom ever.
october 17, 2007
- im not a morning person at all.
- mikie juarez sucks at making pancakes XD
- i love dead babie jokes!!
october 20, 2007
- i really need a job.
- im a dog stealer.
- i really really need a job.
- & sex. i mean a boyfriend ;)
october 21, 2007
- what if i start doing it all the time?
- i dont want to go back to who i was.
- i dont really like who iv become.
- i think alot., and im very deep
- please excuse me.
october 22, 2007
- you gave me butterflys.
- weird part is i wasnt too sure about them
october 24, 2007
- i miss my ferret.
- i really dont like school.
- doctors are retarded.
- i dont gag!
- being sick sucks casturated donkey testicles.
- im looking for someone who wants to run away with me.
- (romanticaly, not rebeliously.)
october 25, 2007
- im convinced i have a brain tumor.
- no one belives me.
october 30, 2007
- im a monkey im a monkey
- im a rabbit im a rabbit
- im a gopher im a gopher
- im a girraf.
- my dog can say hello.
November 1st, 2007
- i tend to get growing pains on a daily basis.
- and headaches.
- i want to be homeschooled
- and a pack of cigarettes.
november 2, 2007
- britney spears is my new bestie :D
- tomorrows loreleis brithday!!!
- its hot as hell in my house.
november 4, 2007
- i love shanananananaa and her friends.
- jello shots and jungle juice are my new favorites.
- i like to spell things with magnets.
- and meeting new people.
- and sarinations. those are fun too ;D
- and passage reading from lord of the rings
- and great weekends :D
- oh, but i hate. when you bring me down.
november 6, 2007
- I HATE AGE!
november 7th, 2007
- i want to get in a car accident
- i wish i had more friends
- or ones that cared more.
november 9, 2007
- its 8:18 am.
- candace is on her way over
- we are hanging out.
- :D i love her.
november 10, 2007
- EVERYONE is two faced
- doesnt matter who you are.
- fast food makes me sick
- davids little brother is crazy
- i hate heat.
november 11, 2007
- i hate poe poe's
- like a tattoo, ill always have you ;D
- i love candace with all of my heart.
november 14, 2007
- i want to meet damien (makememad35)
- his videos made my mommy laugh
- you smell like cum infested goat ass.
november 14, 2007
-i want sushi.
-i cant wait till i drive.
-green tea and honey is my heavan.
-go google a geoduck clam.
-it looks like a penis.
november 18, 2007
- dyani's party rocked.
- i just want to tell him
- i may kiss and tell
- but i dont kiss and forget.
- btw i still have the ticket stub from our first movie.
- i miss you.
november 19, 2007
- all my friends are klepto's
- and i love it :D
- my head hurts
- homeschooling sucks.
november 21, 2007
- i really wish things were diffrent.
november 22, 2007
- why do i miss you so much
- and like you so much
- but i feel so heart heart whenever i think about you?
- i wish you'd just be striaght forward with me, instead of making me giddy and laugh and smile, cause what hurts most is knowing its all for nothing.
november 23, 2007
-i fuckin chilled with the coolest mutherfucker ever, urrik murz. chyeah. he has the biggest cock in the world. oh yeah. woo hoo.:]
-.....?
- =(
november 24, 2007
- im glad i have atleast one friend who wont turn her back on me.
November 25, 2007
- needs some time to think.
- is really scared.
- wants them to know she's here.
- very tired.
november 26, 2007
-my abdomen HURTS
-idk why i try anymore
- i try my hardest to help and you just ignore me.
- but you, i really hope you'll be okay.
november 27, 2007
- my birthdays in a month and 2 days :D
- my heads hurt all day today
- i wanna re-do my room
- we made brownies
november 28, 2007
-iv decided my career is going to be assistant to the stars.
-because im so used to being bitched at and doing what people ask without getting anything in return it sounds like the best job.
- "/
november 29, 2007
-hates when people dont take her seriously
-is going to kill her little brother
-ALKSDJFLKASJKLFLJALKSLJDDFLKJ
- i am in so much pain its not even funny.
december 1, 2007
-28 days till my birthday :D
-it snowed. and its icy.
- =(
december 2, 2007
-i realized some people have it worse than me in certain situations
-it hurts when you try to help and they cant even say anything back
-candace is the most annoying person in the whole intire world
-and p.s. i missed you too :)
december 4, 2007
-i need a nap
-hotdogs are disgusting.
-i want chinese food baaaaaaaad.
december 5, 2007
-im gonna throw every single gun in the toilet.
-and flush them.
-iv lost all hope for anything me and you could have had
-but you, idk how i feel about you quite yet.
-oh yeah, and me and sara are going to work at fazolies on 84th. HOTTIES.
december 6, 2007
-still wants chinese.
-thinks people are simple minded and SUTPID AS HELL
-wishes the best to those who lost people
-IS GOING TO NEW YORK!!!!!!!
december 8, 2007
-went to the mall today, very sad.
-needs some help & cooperation
-is confused. but got a new coat and gloves :D
-oh yeah and boots. im gonna look fly in NY
december 9, 2007
-i love noodle. she helps me post comments.
-my brothers should DIE. no kidding.
december 11, 2007
-my birthdays in 18 days.
-my tooth hurts, again.
-and my head hurts.
-i kinda miss p-nasty doode.
-" you never stop liking someone, you just learn to live without them."
december 12, 2007
-i really dont understand what your trying to tell me
-i cant tell if im anxious, or upset.
december 13, 2007
-your probly one of the only guys that have made me feel this way.
-i still go to your myspace and look at your pictures.
-i say im over "us" but your probly the closest iv come to this so called "love"
-and i can't stop missing you, iv actualy almost forgotten what you look like, it kinda hurts
december 15, 2007
-uhh got a hair cut. :D
-alyssa's party was BOMB.
-i didnt sleep at all. and i fell on my ass when i left her house, embarressing.
december, 16 2007
- went to free hug day at sokol
- met jamie from TWLOHA and sick puppies
- had fun :D
december 17, 2007
-today i feel like i take one step forwards, and i somehow end up 20 steps behind.
-i think all the excitment yesterday led to a "=(" today.
-i feel really lonely, and sad.
-like im going to cry.
-and everytime i hear a song, it reminds me of you.
-but thank god for good things.
-there may be troubles and hard things in my life
-but i know theres still light
december 18,2007
-i miss you.
-alot actualy.
-though i may have blew it for us
-i just wanted to let you know, your the only person iv ever concidered loving.
- i trust you enough to fall in love with you
- i hope you live a good life, and im sorry for whatever i may have done to change your mind.
december 19, 2007
-this is a big THANK YOU to sara for saving me last night.
-but now i need her to wake up. haha
-i love waking up and having a text message from you. :D
- wait no no no, you like.."love" her jk.
- jskljafsldkf idk...
december 22, 2007
-i saw p.s. i love you
-and i cried the whole time
-mostly because the movie made me think of you.
-you make me want to hate myself,
-but i cant come to it, because i dont want to risk loosing you
-even though i practicaly did.
-im sorry.
december 24, 2007
-i miss old friends
-and playing kickball in the middle of the street
-sitting on the porch when it rains
-just being a kid
-i did my growing up here, and i miss every minute of it
-oh yeah, merry christmas eve...(can you say that?)
decemeber 27, 2007
-you confuse the hell outa me.
-i hate that i really dont know how i feel about you
-i cant be with you when i cant stop thinking about him.
(not a him mentioned before, a new him.)
-i wish i didnt get like this.
december 30th 2007
-my birthday was hellla tight.
-getting a tattoo tomorrow
-then surra's to kick of the new year
-the two people, that i hope would say happy birthday
-didnt.
january 1st 2008
-im so excited to kick off the new year.
-i'v spent this past year fucking my life up, between skipping out on school, partying and doing nothing
-its actualy making me hate myself
-but this year im going to work on being someone i an like
-so im going to loose weight whether i "need too" or not. its something im doing for myself
-im going to work hard at school, so i can actualy graduate and not use dropping out as a last resort
-and im gonna learn how to fall in love. and hopfuly find the person to do it with.
january 4, 2008
-people never stop amazing me
-and i love it.
january 6, 2008
-my tattoo looks awesome
-it seriously hurt like hell though.
-they said it was just cause it was my foot so i believe them.
-im pooped, i need to shower and sleep.
-"do it for love"
january 9, 2008
-you were my first real kiss this year.
-and i was yours
-you are so cute, and i want you to know my heart practicaly leaped out of my chest when i saw you texted me
-i like you alot.
-and it makes sence since iv known you for so long
-please just be there for me.
-oh yeah. i got a new tooth brush.
january 10 2008
-i think guys in pajama pants is the hottest thing iv ever seen.
-i hate my school. nothing works its rediculous.
-adslkdfjlkasdjflkasjdf;lkjasdf ily!
january 12, 2008
-im so proud of myself for sticking up to you.
-im not going to let you hurt me anymore.
january 14, 2008
-i dont feel like ill get to accomplish much in life.
-but if this is all i get to do
-im glad i got to do it with everyone i did.
january 17, 2008
-i can see why people say tattoo's are addicting
-i already want another and this ones not even done healing!
-i wanna go to SC now.
-im sick of nebraska and 97% of the people in it.
- ugh.
january 21, 2008
-i was told by bdubs that i'd deff be hearing from them :D
-im pretty excited.
-my mom seems to be avoiding me going to SC
-its making me really angry.
-today was a good day.
january 22, 2008
-Rest in Paradise heath ledger.
-now everytime i watch 10 things i hate about you i'll cry for all the wrong reasons.
-i hope you realize that i do this only because i wanna hang out with you.
-thats how much i like you.
january 24, 2008
-i have the best friends.
-im afraid of my future
-i saved your voice-mail...
january 27, 2008
-i want to cry so bad.
-i hate my dad. i honestly do
-i HATE even more when people say
-"you dont even go to school" i hope you all know you make me feel stupid and worthless.
-fuck you all
january 29, 2008
-forget my family
-fucking gay shit.
-i want to LEAVE.
january 31, 2008
-i want to change
-i dont want to hate things anymore
-i wish i had a job
-and more money.
-i miss stacee....=(
febuary 2, 2008
-i think i broke my toe.
-i hate money, all of it.
-i want my tattoo
-i want it to be sunday so i can read post secret
-i really like my song
Febuary 3, 2007
-i want a talkshow. i think i'd be good at that.
-chelsea lately is god.
-i hate my dad.
-my mom is on the "i might hate you" list.
-i would really like to leave here.
-who the fuck are the patriots. (hahajk)
february 7, 2008
-i miss stacee.
-i need clothes.
- i wanna be a skinnyyyy girl.
- or loose 60-70 pounds.
- along with 8-9 inches.
- oh god that'd be heavan.
Feburuary 9, 2008
-getting my license on friday
-(thats my goal)
-i hate myself when i forget about post secret..
-i love noodle.
february 11, 2008
-Yahoo answers has answer'd so many of my questions before anyone i know could
-i want to change.
- i want to graduate...
february 17, 2008
-i was accepted by a fart lol
-had fun these past few days.
-and i got alot of my chest.
-asdjkflksdjf i hate myself too
Februrary 18, 2008
-i really would like to run away.
-i dont have a home anymore
-i have one person, who hasn't left my side
-for anything.
-and its that one person thats keeping me here.
-i need someone who can understand. not someone who gives up on me because their "done"
-i thought fixing things made people stronger in relationships.
-i guess i was wrong about everything.
februrary 19, 2008
-i dont think i'v ever been this terrified in my whole intire life.
-i dont even know what im so scared of.
- but i feel like im stuck in a haunted house.
-my gut is SCREAMING, my chest is stuck
-i really think im dieing.
-aside from that, my drivings getting better
february 20, 2008
-whenever i think about you.
-my heart doesn't flutter
-or skip beats.
-i dont feel week in my knees
-or want to cry
-i just remeber laying there
-when you asked me
-about the first day we met.
-and how you remeber most everything about what i had just thought of as another day.
-that will always stay in my mind.
february 21, 2008
-my life so far, is a constant bore.
-i can't wait until it takes a turn
-into the extraordinary.
february 22, 2008
-i declare myself a bastard.(can girls be that?)
-things would be alot better without "jim"
-fucking faggot.
february 23, 2008
- i really do hope its true.
- for as much as it would suck.
february 24, 2008
- you are just like my dad
- minus the mean.
- please...get the hell out of my head.
- im scared to think of you.
february 25, 2008
- im happy for you :D
- and im glad were friends again.
- i dont know what i should say anymore
- but i am happy.
february 26, 2008
- my song puts a lump in my throat.
- my back hurts.
- i love yahoo answers. idk what id do without it.
- i need a hobby.
- and a license.
- and a freaking alarm clock!
February 27, 2008
- ugh.
- im just sittin waiting wishen.
february 28, 2008
- today wasn't a very good day.
- but i made cookies.
- super tired.
- i just realized im half-hour late for class.
- oops.
- i hate my life.
march 1, 2008
- i wish people would be more open
- and call back, or hang out when they say they want too.
- stacee. i would like to live with you.
- nebraska = SHIT.
march 2, 2008
- today would end bad huh...
- as long as he's happy right?
- you aim to please, dont forget
- "/
March 4, 2008
- i hate my brain tumor.
- i hate my dogs
- i miss people.
- UGH.I NEED A FUCKING CIGARETTE.
- im going NUTS!
March 5, 2008
- i want everything you have
- i miss hanging out with you every weekend.
- its not fun being alone "/
- i dont want to be alone...
march 6, 2008
-i love life....today
-got my license :D
-noodles the horniest little dog i've ever owned
-only with her humpy monkey, so she's not like a hoe or anything
march 9, 2008
- i love beer pong
- i hate being sick
- i hate having my license
- it just gives my parents something new to bitch at me about.
- i already got my car taken away
- bullshit.
march 11,2008
- today i hit an armored car.
- my brother thought it was cool.
- my mom doesn't know.
- but its so nice out today, that nothing could bother me.
- i got lost on purpose it was so nice outside.
March 14, 2008
-wendy's is officialy my favorite fast food.
-im a bad driver, mainly when candace is in the car
-i love love love my myspace song
-me and jason castro are making mad passionate love
-suck it bitches.
-i think im delusional right now.
march 17, 2008
-i need a muse
-jskldjfa
-good as weekend.
march 19, 2008
- gas sucks.
- i need a new job
- i want another ferret...=(
- i want an appartment!!!
march 24, 2008
- you will never talk to her about me.
- i've never talked to anyone about what i told you
- i wish i didn't trust people so easily
- im never going to be on your mind like she is
- that hurts.
march 26, 2008
- i want to tell you to choose
- even thought you've probably already made a choice
- you'd pick her over me anyday.
- and thats what sucks.
- i like how you make it hard for me to forget you
- because thats the last thing i want to do right now
March 28, 2008
- my song makes me feel really happy
- makes me think of me and alves. sitting on a couch
- bouncing from side to side.
- i got new shorts and i feel sexy.
- if your not wasted; your night is.
- top model is stupid!
march 30, 2008
-i can't believe you couldn't even say "im sorry".
-thats all i wanted from you
-i hope your happy fighting for the rest of your relationship.
-blah.
april 1, 2008
-im ready to change for me.
-no matter what it takes
-ill do it to make myself happy
-its time that im happy
april 2, 2008
-happy day after april fools day...day
-dont assume. wait until i tell you how i feel.
-i dont hate anyone.
-i feel like i need to get away.
-oh and my driving sucks.
April 9, 2008
-im stoked for this weekend
-im gonna get cruuuunk
-haha.
- oh and im getting my hair did, uh son.
- mucho excited about that one.
april 13, 2008
-I DROVE A JEEP WRANGLER ON SATURDAY!
-it was and still is the best day of my life thanks to dustin!
-"he's escaping he's escaping"
- i wanna go buy a jeep right now
- oh and i wore a dress! lol
april 17, 2008
- i love my friends
- the ruins was a gay movie
- babies crying is the worst
- >=|
- i wish my car wasn't broken and stupid!!!!
- i want a new one!
april 20, 2008
-i feel abandoned.
-and i feel like i smelt that wrong.
-i miss stacee ..
-i just realized i said smelt. instead of spelt.
april 23, 2008
-shawty said the nigga that she with aint this.
-had a job interview today.
-i think i have poop on my nose
-cause i was kissing SO MUCH ASS
-think i got it though, dunno till monday.
-i have to pee so bad.
April 28, 2008
-there are alot of physcotic people in this world.
-my cereal is soggy
-i hate hate hate screaming babies.
-i want someone.
april 29,2008
-im lonely.
may 6th, 2008
-im obsessed with handbags.
-they call me a failure because i went my own way.
-when you feel it you know
-summers almost here :)
may 7, 2008
-im scared of the world
-im scared of the people in it.
-im scared of the places ill go
-i have hope. no matter what happens.
-jason castro is my idol. forever and for always.
may 11, 2008
-i have hairspray in my eyes.
-i am loved.
-and im leaving.
-i plan on getting out of this godforsaken place
-and doing something.
may 12, 2008
-i found a new obsession..
-mario kart for wii :)
-im scared.
may 27, 2008
-"its beach boy blonde!"
-i love my friends :)
-"i just got a dui"
-"STEVE YOUR ON A ONE WAY!"
-hahahahahhaaha :D
may 30, 2008
-i wanna come home
-i miss my friends.
-its been less than a day.
june 12,2008
-i love shopping.
-and driving into the river lol
-and kneeing myself in the face with allie :)
june 20, 2008
-im gonna see jason castro!!!
-atleast my mommy said i can :)
-i miss candace.
-my boobs hurt
-my parents got a myspace :/
-its hot in my room.
july 6, 2008
-i don't write here much anymore.
-it seems like theres not much more to say anymore
-im not scared.
-im going back to school.
-ill learn to deal.
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